Life had a plan all along
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My life has been a bootcamp
This week I'm feeling fired up and grateful.
As I look back on my life I can't help but laugh.
The universe, God, infinite intelligence, or whatever you'd like to call the infinite has a sick sense of humor…
…and I find it so funny.
Let me explain:
When I was younger I genuinely wanted to die so badly, and I couldn't understand why life was so fucked up.
And for a long time it only seemed to be getting worse.
From age 3-11 I had a close family member degrade, abuse, and mistreat me daily…
…which greatly effected my confidence and self worth.
During those years I had a mess of other random experiences that confused and hurt me…
…witnessing and experiencing mental, emotional, physical, and sexual abuse - drug use - and the dark reality of generational curses playing out.
By age 12 I started smoking weed and drinking…
…then we lost our family home…
…a couple years after that my brother and I started experimenting with pills…
…he got hooked on heroin a short time later…
…a couple years after that he passed away…
…and during this time I started dating someone that also grew up in chaos...
...who I’d later end up being with for 8 years…
…and her family had it’s own darkness and dysfunction that added to my many life experiences at a young age.
We tried to run away from it all…
…but as the years went on, we repeated the chaos ourselves - and it destroyed our relationship in the process.
And that was my ‘final nail in the coffin’.
I remember hitting rock bottom and cursing God - feeling victimized and deeply damaged - wondering “why me”.
When was it all going to end?
Was I destined to suffer and repeat the chaos from my youth?
What was the point of all of this anyways?
It seemed pretty bleak not gonna lie.
But DUDE! I’m so glad I didn’t cop out and give up back then haha.
The same year my life fell apart I found my purpose and began to realize just how fucking funny God is.
In a sick but awesome way of course.
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Remember, too, that all who succeed in life get off to a bad start, and pass through many heartbreaking struggles before they ‘arrive.’ The turning point in the lives of those who succeed, usually comes at the moment of some crisis, through which they are introduced to their ‘other selves'.
— Napoleon Hill
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That whole time I was getting my ass dragged through the mud and creating chaos for myself I was being prepared.
Like some sort of boot camp, I was in training to prepare for the calling God had in store for me.
I had to suffer, lose everything including myself, and see the darkest aspects of humanity…
…otherwise how else would I have the compassion, wisdom, and depth to help others?
The wounds that hurt me so deeply became the scars that qualify me.
And looking back I am so stoked and grateful.
Plus I can have a good laugh at the irony of it all.
It’s quite amusing if you ask me.
So I guess what I want to convey to you is this:
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The pain that you hold is yours. There is not a single pain quite like it. Nobody else on God’s green earth can feel this pain, or have the indescribable feeling of pride you will have when you overcome it. This pain is not your curse; this pain is your privilege.
— Arnold Schwarzenegger
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It isn’t all for nothing, and the very things that break you…
…also build you.
Be strong and laugh in the face of pain.
Commit like me, to see life through no matter what.
✅ Win of The Week: Walking my talk
This week I've been kicking ass and taking names.
I feel very connected to, clear on, and convicted in what I'm building right now.
My business. My body. My lifestyle. My bank account. My family.
Brick by brick, day by day, and step by step the vision I've held in my mind and heart is manifesting before my eyes.
❌ Challenge of The Week: Keeping things simple and sustainable
I've been working hard to get consistent across the board, but mainly in my business.
After several weeks of trial and error - I've experienced short bursts of consistency with content for example - but it's not been sustained.
So this week my focus has been to simplify even more, and improve my system so it's very sustainable for the days ahead.
What I Am Working On & Learning
Business: Follow the models but trust your gut
I've learned that to be successful in business you must find what is working for other people and copy it.
Otherwise you're wasting time and going to learn a lot of lessons the hard way, which I've done for sure.
However I'm realizing that you still need to trust your gut when it comes to how you go about everything.
For the last few months I was trying a particular business model, and wasn't seeing the results I wanted.
I wasn't feeling super connected to how I was doing it…
…just telling myself 'trust the process and copy what works'.
But now I’ve pivoted and it’s already paying off.
In fact I’m in a competition this month to win something called ‘The Skool Games’.
If you’d like to support me - check out my new program + community - and consider joining (limited time offer & limited spots).
Note to self: The truth is there are many ways to skin a cat, and the best way is the way that feels best in my gut.
Money: The source of all riches
In my studies recently I hear a profound truth re-stated in a particular way that blew my mind.
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Infinite riches are all around you if you will open your mental eyes and behold the treasure house of infinity within you.
There is a gold mine within you from which you can extract everything you need to live life gloriously, joyously, and abundantly.
— Joseph Murphy | The Power of Your Subconscious Mind
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Our subconscious mind is the bridge between us and the source of all things (also known as God, Spirit, Source, Infinite Intelligence, etc.)
By mastering my subconscious mind, I by default master my ability to receive riches, or anything else I want - because what is IMPRESSED must be EXPRESSED.
Note to self: I don't have to 'work hard for money' - I simply need to feed my subconscious mind instructions and I will reap what I sow.
Life: Fatherhood is near
My son is due to be born anytime now.
Right now I'm internally and externally preparing for this new chapter and adventure.
Lately I've had the opportunity to reflect on myself, and had others reflect certain things back to me…
…and it's made me realize: I got this shit. I am going to be an incredible father, and all the work I've been doing on myself will pay off as a parent.
Note to self: Soak up each moment as you never know when life will never be quite the same again.
Self: Success isn't an outcome it's a way of being
Rather than wait until I've accomplished everything I want to in order to say 'I'm successful'…
…I've remembered that is a fools game, and only keeps us stuck.
Earl Nightingale has an incredible definition of success:
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Success is the progressive realization of a worthy goal or ideal.
— Earl Nightingale
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Notice how it's not 'accomplishment of a worthy goal or ideal' but the 'progressive realization' of one.
Being successful simply means you know what you want, and you are taking constant steps towards getting it.
So by that definition, I am one successful MOFO.
Note to self: You don't get what you want, you get what you are - so be it now, and you'll have it.
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See you next time and as always...
Rooting for you 💪
–Christopher
“It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.” - Confucius
